As difficult as it sounds

Depressions getting to me

Questions are testing my patience

It's Time to write another record

i'm setting the record straight

I just can't ventilate

imagine being a car with the handbrake

constantly on and your trying to move on

you can't stay calm you're a bomb nepalm

Fuck this song I wrote it on the fucking spot

Fuck all these cunts oh yeah that's what I thought

I outta not be mean

but there is only one thing

that I'll say whether you're black white or gay

I wouldn't wish this on anyone

Fuck this shit I'm out fuck everyone

have another pill, another one

just to get this shit off my chest

the pills act like a bullet proof vest

the mdma takes away the pain

that I feel everyday and

its such a shame that thats what its come to

I don't even want to continue

with my life fuck breathing

I can't stop believing

that drugs are what its come to

in my head voices screaming

driving me insane

and now you know why i feel this pain

it ain't a game and i ain't lying

what if i told you i was sat there crying

had no money, no friends there was noone there

fuck this shit i'm out i swear

left the house with my sleeping bag

you think its sad my parents were glad

gone for whole 2 days and i didn't hear shit

I should be locked away with my straight jacket

cuz i'm mad, im virtually insane

wishing that I could find another way to deal with the pain

sat out in the cold no coat whilst it rained

i was soaked through

complating suicide

would I rather die or have no one by my side

And nothing on this track i've said is a lie

i wish it was, cuz then i'd be better off

not thinking about taking my own life

that shit ain't right i'm 16 i ain't lived my life

but you've tried to do it before ben

its morbid 3am and its boltic

sat outside in the morning

hungry from no dinner rain pouring

down my face fuck this shit

i can't believe what i witnessed

i still think i still stink

its been a week and i'm weak

another bottle another drink

and i still think

the weed is getting to my brain

my name isn't even the same

anymore its a joke

its a laughing stock

yeah thats what i thought

as difficult as it sounds