I'm not sorry (I can't be)

[Verse-1]

Let's stop playing this game of pretend. You have been and always will be my friend.

Right from the start, till here to the end.

I never knew what it's like to be sorry, cause I never wanted to be this kinda boring.

We played in the sandbox, watched them hot girls get botox.

You were my friend and I were yours, you always knew how to defend.

I always attacked, but I always knew I could count on you, and would always be backed.

But boo, this ain't the end, this just the start. You think I'm sad, I think I'm happy.

But it don't matter what anyone thinks no more, just get on your nappy and go cry in a corner.

I'll buy you a loli, just like I did in sophomore, no. You were always the dorker--

One shouldn't speak Ill of the dead. But I'm not a one, now. I'm half of a whole, though.

Just like that hole in the wall, bro. This'll always be a freaking reminder.

How bad it feels to lose someone whose name you wrote down in the binder.

I know How badly I'm not sorry. Got my head wrapped around the whole thought of the glory.

But you know now I'll never make it. You remember how you tapped on my shoulder, and said it's a 'we' not 'I'?

Looks like all you taught me is how to bake it, but you never told me how to prepare it. Why?

Just cause I stopped talking to you, don't mean I stopped thinking about you. Bye.

I never gave up on the thought of the friendship, back when we sailed on the French ship. Lie

I bought you a locket, told you 'this make you my brother', Cry

the one you put in your pocket, just as if you'd drained it down the socket.

But why even bother? Why?

[Chorus]

But why? Why would you leave me behind?

But why? Why would you put out a Lie?

But why? Why didn't you even lay out your bye?

But why? Why'd you have to make me cry?

But now all I can say is 'Bye'

[Verse-2]

Maybe I shoulda skipped right through the lyrics.

But that seems to be all that's remembered by them pitiful critics.

But I don't even got them. So why do I even bother?

No I don't, tonight's all about you, brother.

You're not just a name to be added into the list of the killings.

Not just a piece pulled out of the bag of the clippings.

I don't write to please somebody, I write so I can ease carrying down that body.

And I know you want only the good parts. But why are you being so naive.

What's life without it's share of the hards?

All it takes for you is to have some belief, it's something that I believe you can rather simply achieve

I'm sick of hearing this crap. No I'm not bent on making a hell of a massive mischief.

I'm just tryna be the leader of all this mishap, the chief that gave you the beef

Did I just call this mishap? I know now no I didn't, I couldn't, I wouldn't, but that's all I wanted.

Just for this to be some sort of a massive, dream.

I'm walking down the alley, my voice is so passive, it's being impassive.

Fasten your seatbelts, cause this is not how my beat felt.

At least that's what I think. Quick catch this, or you might miss it in a blink.

Four more to go, before this verse is down with the ink. Why?

I'm starting to question, if I should rehearse. If this something that I would wink to. Lie

Just put the car into reverse, and have one last long blink, and drive into the sunset. Bye

I put in the audio cassette, feeling like we used to. Cry

I'm still not sorry, nor filled with regret, boo. Why?

[Chorus]

But why? Why would you leave me behind?

But why? Why would you put out a Lie?

But why? Why didn't you even lay out your bye?

But why? Why'd you have to make me cry?

But now all I can say is 'Bye'

[Verse-3]

I tried to follow the same path that you did. Just to fail yet again.

I knew you felt hallow, and I also knew your heart wasn't shallow. Alas.

I came out running, came back in chains. They say no pain no gain.

But all I got is them silly gains. Electricity is not what I wanted to feel.

But I guess you if you give in you get the heel.

Simplicity wasn't what I expected either.

But I didn't except to lose control of the wheel.

Start seeing them sounds, and hearing the colours

And they won't let me out till I say 'I'm okay',

but we both know that's not something that I'd say

I won't let it weigh anymore.

I'm feeling my nightmares come to life.

It's like bloody Frankenstein, but I didn't want them to come back to live

Anything that hurts makes me feel alive.

You never listened to me

You were just reminiscing to be The love of my life.

I know I'm exaggerating.

No ew not with the dating, more like the mating shit of the hating.

Translating the stuff in my head, is beginning to feel so frustrating.

but I guess it's somewhat motivating. I'm evacuating, my mind, concentrating on authenticating

My mind, I'm not blind I can see it's deteriorating, being intoxicating.

I'm self-deprecating, I guess acknowledgment truly is the first step of the solution.

Yeah, I've Began the process of self-evolution.

[Chorus]

But why? Why would you leave me behind?

But why? Why would you put out a Lie?

But why? Why didn't you even lay out your bye?

But why? Why'd you have to make me cry?

But now all I can say is 'Bye'

[Verse-4]

Was I being too repetitive?

Fuck no I didn't. I just lost my inspiration.

Or maybe I just didn't care about your silly interpretation

All that silly preparation went down the drain.

You think I was numb, no I felt a shit ton of a pain.

I never meant it for you to be like this.

I never knew you'd derived to this. Never would've yelled 'bite this'

I think I just blew my chance on happiness, stuck in this prison of mine

it's worse than the prison in my mind full of craftiness.

I fell in love, found a friend, but I blew it all, was I simply too blind? God

Yeah, she made me happy, he knew how to make me laugh. Did I just give it up for this?

I'm in the middle of the abyss., abuse. I can't take it.

I want to blame you, although I know I shouldn't just take it.

I'll miss you mate, but I'll have to move on, and put out my hate, cause I get this is just our fate

I'm just sad I realized this too late, but I hope I still have another chance, not that I deserve it.

But if I could just get another glance to what's beyond this, maybe I should just preserve it.