The reason I Rap

Music has been all i got, life has been so down for me

Growing up being me wasnt easy despite all the envy

i filled my life with jokes then why does it feel so empty

the shit i carry in my mind has made my heart heavy

In recess i played a princess with my own homies

it was either that or i stood the chance of being lonely

so i ran around in short while they dissed me openly

its been 8 years now, so why does this memory haunt me

6 years ago i was the new kid back in my highschool

i never knew cool but i was abit of a big fool

i thought i was tough, i thought i was strong, thought i was hood

till i got beat up by my class mates in my classroom

I had to train my body to get a lil bit stronger

i wasnt that intimidating but i was so buffer

i was up for cool, i sag my pants with a black boxer

this wasnt that cool cause i know it was hurting my mother

i stood dope, i thought i had everything in my life

i met a sweet girl i was shy but i honnestly tried

i called her M and promised she gone be my future wife

and with her i stayed, with me she thrived and we survived

was going smoothly till she told me she was about leaving

well she really didnt who the fuck am i decieving

went to her home,swore i wouldnt leave without a reason

but none came, turns out me she was also missing

i tried my best to keep a long distance relationship

turns out i was wrong and then she took a hit, damn am shit

the memories came and went but she was my songs lyrics

then i had to be off shit for a year and the month six

later on we came into freestyle i was the best there

did it always as long as the crew was able to hear

what i was saying but despite all and despite the fear

momentum came,did it on stage, hit em like a spear

i was called the best rapper alive within one damn year

then lost it in a battle, cause my voice damn disappeared

wasnt the weather, i wasnt sick this i can openly swear

was the crowd man and a young dawgs heart that was filled with fear

then later i knew love once more, i was still killing mcs

her name was blur but was with her 3 month, then she left me

its not that am ugly please, am fucked up can you hear me

and i think i was not getting enough real buzz lately

left my highschool to a new one cause my teachers hate me

flogged me so much, i had a check up from the dr for free

went to a new school, they already knew i was crazy

i was still praying to my dear God to come and save me

3 months lately i was done with it and wasup to leave

but shit came up once again, like this shit is new to me

drew on the wall, we all but at the end it was all Paul

now was not given my result until i repaint the wall

lost my phone that day

you wanna hear it all

summary is i got a whole lotta shit in my life

and most times i give that happy glance at my kitchen knife

most times i question the real reason why i ball through strife

guess its my family and my rap that keeps me alive

so if we meet anytime anyday or anywhere

watch what you say cause am no longer filled with that lil fear

I am a young gee, a savage best yall reading beware

Cause amma rap all my life dawg this i swear

this the reason why i rap dawg

this the reason why i rap dawg

and am not gonna stop dawg

yeah am never gonna stop dawg