dear reader (copyright 2014 swfr)

Dear reader

As you can tell im pretty mad

My lifes shitty and every day is bad

Hard on the outside but inside im cryin

Cant remember the last fucking time that I was smiling

I grown up without a father

but that shit dosnt bother

because in my head im drowning

in thoughts about my upbringing

the shit ive had to go through in my 13 years of yearning

my life is a curse so I just have to immerse into diverse

thoughts and fantasies that could not get any worse

don’t judge my life until you’ve read my next verse

 

Dear reader put your self in my shoes ill bring you back to 01

I was born a lovely little gift for my mom

3 years later in 04 my beautiful sister was born

But by 06 my life was becoming very deprived

And in 07 I started feeling like suicide

In 08 we ran away from home left dad a note

Trapsing through the snow with nowhere to go

09 we started doing just fine except everything was going downhill in my mind

2010 mental health started breaking down depressed

Started seeing my dad for the first time since we left

But all he did was put me down and wish me dead

2011-13 in and out of looney bins sorting out my head

I Cut myself and bled left myself for dead

A year later in the present moment shit happens been disowned by my father

Lucky my heads on the mend and this verse is bout to end but before it does I don’t mean to sound needy

but im broke as fuck and I really need a friend so help me please get me out this slump

my llife is on the mend that’s my story 01-14 I don’t mean to offend fuck off if you’ve got a problem with me

 

Dear reader

I hope you understand my misery

And I hope you take it literelly

Because im wounded mentally and physically

One day youll see what Ill grow up be

Imma be famous and eventually

Grow a fanbase wider that the eye can see

Because now you know what its like

To be me

Feeling like theres no escape

If you can relate put your hands in the air and scream like theres no today