AMEN, letter to god.

I'm holding on to the light I'm bold I sold out I just forgot my count

this is ending me I'm surrounded the sound of death like the last

breath of your loved ones being drowned I always thought I was locked in

but I'm locked out there heart I'm fighting I'll tear this playground

to my battleground ultrasound through the beat of bullet shells at school

I get put-down at school at what I have to call home I don't know it like

I'm in a knew country new laws except that same old because your

not normal your chemical imbalance my ass I'm the outcast you see in

the movies who ruins shit and gets bullied I bleed at every moment the shit

these freaks feed my ears its defeating you think you breathing

but I can't be I don't voice my incomplete sentences they use references

they can't comprehend my circumstances my anger dances it prances

it stresses me what I'm capable of if when you think they care honestly

about your welfare they take your words down to there evil layer give it

the stare and think I have something messed up in your head upstairs

the rare genuine person soon becomes the next story on the news

receives boos he's coo-coo he flew off the deep end. the manipulation

turns in to an allegation it swarms my head frustration a lie a woman

I loved so much created I stand to this day. I still forgive you through all

you put me through and all you give me is a stamp on my four head

it says screw you. I even had the chance to press charges your heart is

venomous my self-conscious damage I have you did it to me you did

you get off with no consequences and I still give you forgiveness

this vacation I'm in is a life sentence every ten minuets is one day

I pray for you but I will always know I was not good enough for you.

cps is my weakness its not right I know how it feels to be a number

a puppet we'll get through it in Jesus name we pray amen.