Unmasked

I got more hate in me than bin laden

Only difference is I hold it all in

Inside I know I'm fake

Like a mask, Opaque

But lately my face has been shining through

I look into the mirror like i look at a friend I once knew

I'm still the same

And for my mistakes

I have no one to blame

But myself

Im the reason for my pain

 

Oh

 

I stick two middle fingers high in the air

Screaming that life ain't fair

Sometimes I feel like no one would care

If I dropped dead right here

But death is the one thing I fear

Because inside im aware that I haven't made myself known

Nobody outside my city would know I was gone

Man I hate myself

But when i say that

All i get is a pat

On my back

And a quick “calm down

There’s no need to frown

Now get up

Before you bring us down”

So i wipe a fake smile on my face

I start running from my emotions like its a helicopter chase

And until now they haven’t caught up to my pace

But lately

I haven’t liked the fake me

So Ive been writing this to make sure society doesn’t break me.

Y’all calling me crazy

But if you want me to change my self more

Yo Gonna have to make me

 

When I used to get sad

Id talk to my mom or dad

And theyd tell me

That sad was something I wouldn't have to be

But then a struggle started

I wanted to be free.

I realized I had been trapped in a prison made by me.

I thought emotion was a sign of weakness

But now I realize its part of life.

I found how to escape this jail

You need a song to prevail

Someone asked me,

“why do ya listen to music?”

Said i need-it to get through shit

And when i have to do something tough

I need songs to do it

I realize this is how things go wrong

When people don't have their song

They take some weed from that bong

Cus they don't have something to keep em goin

 

I have been set up through fate.

To be that kid who gets his sanity a little late

And ends up killing someone or gives crack a taste.

My story is the start of one that doesn’t end well

A story of someone who peeked at 14 and then fell

Or a story of someone who thought he wasn’t cool

And shot up his school

Face it fate is cruel

It gave me anger

But know what? ill use that as a tool

Ill prove fate is a fool

For thinking it could mess me up

Guess what

I don’t need yo luck

And i don’t give a fuck

Ill control fate

And i wont keep myself up