grin

I'm unsigned and unknown,

I just stay rhyming freestyling

like I'm on a deadline

and my life hangs in the balance Dying,

Born In New York.

But Johnny wasn't raised on long island,

I hop, skipped, and split,

Across the country, Bus riding///

 

Poverty line I lived below it.

Born poor, And my clothes showed it

Now that I'm grown,

I realized I'm glad that I wasn't Born rich.

Suffering and grief

Must be the recipe for happiness//

 

My whole life,

In Addictions grip

  and I can't seem to shake it.

I took the pain and misery

Lyrically recreated it,

All the blood, sweat and tears,

Over the years I've traded in,

Replaced them with the strength required daily

With my pad and pen

 

I guess I just felt the need to digress.

Vocalize every ounce of stress

I feel inside of my chest.

Told id never amount to shit,

when I was a little kid.

wishing his position was different,

  and pissin in the wind.

 

 

 

I made a promise to myself,

Early on that I'd never give in.

I've walked thru hell

burning alive, and never stopped grinning.

Thankful every single day,

its always thanksgiving.

Grateful just to wake up in the morning

Still living.

 

Moneys not what I'm aiming

to achieve in the music industry.

All i need's serenity,

And crowds of people feeling me.

Soon as I hear the beat,

I can start to feel it healing me.

 

 

Believe me,

Every word that I speak is to try and reach

every person in the galaxy,

My goal is to teach,

Heal and give strength to the weak

 

Even if it's only one fan

I made a difference

In this god forsaken land.

I used to pretend,

I had a dad and a ton of friends.

Wasn't living in a different

Apartment every other weekend

 

Living on welfare.

In a warzone for a household

at school he was bullied

For being new and wearing old clothes

My early years were darker than an

Underground tunnel

Getting pummeled

So I acted out

Juvenile in trouble

 

Early on I lost my faith in God,

Debated the odds,

But that was lost when I

Ate garbage just so I wouldn't

Starve ,

Mom's couldn't afford to pay

Cold showers and lights off

Run-ins with the law

That always

Got me locked inside a box

 

I've been blessed with a gift N i refuse to remain silent

potential pouring out my pencil

Lead flying like tech nines and,

I learned alot lot of lessons

depression

And anxiety

But now I've been enlightened,

my slate wiped clean.

 

I traversed the earth to find purpose,

And found what i was searching

For looking right back at me

I know now that it was a worth it

Headed for death or prison

So i Chose an alternate version

And decided to go on living

 

The moral of the story is clear

If you let it sink in

When you feel like you can't see tommorow,

Like your life has no reason

breath in deep and

Use your anguish and rage

As strength instead of a weakness

I truly mean this.

I've battled demons

As long as I can think back

Had bad dreams,

 

But that's the life of a damaged,

Awkward kid with bad parents

  blatenely apparent to me by the age of three, it was a dead marriage

I'd have to teach myself to read, to feed,

Basically how to do everything,

 

Like a Savage,

On top of having a habit

I can barely manage

The panic attacks

Are starting to have

a drastic affect

I'm starting to crack

Feeling like I'm having a heart attack

Cardiac arrest

From the stress

Chain-smoking ciggarretes

  blatenely apparent to me by the age of three, it was a dead marriage

I'd have to teach myself to read, to feed,

Basically how to do everything,

 

Like a Savage,

On top of having a habit

I can barely manage

The panic attacks

Are starting to have

a drastic affect

I'm starting to crack

Feeling like I'm having a heart attack

Cardiac arrest

From the stress

Chain-smoking ciggarretes

 

 

I made a promise to myself,

Early on that I'd never give in.

I've walked thru hell

burning alive, and never stopped grinning.

Thankful every single day,

its always thanksgiving.

Grateful just to wake up in the morning

Still living.

 

Moneys not what I'm aiming

to achieve in the music industry.

All i need's serenity,

And crowds of people feeling me.

Soon as I hear the beat,

I can start to feel it healing me