From The Heart (Alfie Prod.)

Sometimes I don't know where to go

Sometimes I get lost, all alone

Sometimes I cant tell the difference between family and all my bros

But its all going well now, at least I hope so

Went through a rough pach couple months ago

But I managed to pull it back and im glad

Could've gone downhill further sent my Dad mad

But he didn't know the half of it

Drug abuse and violence nobody knew that

Was 14 when I saw my first gat but nobody knew that

Only 13 when I lost my virginity, that's a shock to them but not me

Especially when I found out about the baby thats mad

Shit running through my mind it was bad

Was thinking of ending it there and then, but then I started to think,

What if I could be a Dad

What if I could be a father figure to who would now be a three-year-old girl

Its mad

But I guess I should have never thought of that

6 Months in and it all went bad, she lost the baby and I lost my mind

Like how the fuck does that even happen, i slipped deep down into a spiral

Losing my mind I went back to contemplating suicide

that was my mind made up and it was final no body gonna change that

But after multiple chats with close mates they helped me

Pull it back, to stand back on my own two feet and im so glad

I owe my life to that, judge me how you want after you hear this man

I'm certain this gonna make people hate me,

Like how in the fuck is this kid gonna have a baby

He can barely secure his own lady

But chat what you want, cuz to be honest I don't give a fuck

I dont wanna lose what I've built up

Especially as its nearing 1 month ive never been happier

Finally found something I'm willing to take serious

She says no matter what nothing could change her feelings

But im doubting those words that she speaking

Especially after these bars that im feeding

Their running through your mind

As if its trying to take you on a mad emotional ride

But thats something I went through at 12 years of age

Thinking I was trapped in mums house as if in a cage

So I thought fuck that

built up the courage of my own back

Decided it was time to move in with my Dad

Been there for me ever since

I just beg he forgives me for alla my sins

Because ive stole of him; robbed multiple times from him

But now im gonna do him proud

Wish I could have been better, still

Cuz im know that i'm a cunt, real

But I dont think im ever gonna change

I just bill up and chill out, relaxing still