CHANGES. (Prod by Emani)

Part I

 

I hate the changes

''But that's just the way it is''

I hate the changes

''But that's just the way it is''

 

I look in the mirror and i hate that i see

This mysterious stranger staring back at me

Never would've pictured myself in this situation

All the trials and tribulations i'm facing

I feel like I'm pacing around the same hallway

Looking for that sound but it feels a mile away

Its in distance then suddenly dissipates

I anticipate the feeling, just a bit late

My mistakes come back and haunt me,keeping my pace

I feel like I saunter, can never win this race

I ask god to help me make it with this feeling

I'm failing school, almost hanging from the ceiling

Constant mood swings, some irate teenager movements

You know ,cuss out your mother eat all her food things

While you sit back all day moody watching movies

But this big pit of downfalls. yea that's a new thing

 

I hate the changes

''But that's just the way it is''

I hate the changes

"But that's just the way it is"

 

I just can't seem to stomach who I'm becoming

Is this god's work or Lucifer being so cunning

Lately been stuffing my face to heal boredom

I see the weight gain but continue to eat more

And lately been having trouble with the girls and

I'm stuck on this opposite attracts illusion

No one likes me why does everyone despise me

I sit up in my own bedroom all day hiding

Hopefully the day will pass by if i sleep more

Waking at the crack of dawn thinking it worked

Now I'm up all hours of the night contemplatting

I can't make it, into the blackness I'm fading

There's no debating I'm a little off at times

My feelings they resonate in my softest lines

I keep on telling him that I hate the changes

And he keeps responding that's just the way it is

 

 

I hate the changes

'But that's just the way it is'

I hate the changes

'But that's just the way it is'

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Pt II

 

I awaken the sun rays shine on my face and

I'm Feeling complacent no more contemplating

My biggest battle was being at war with myself

I was too coward to even reach out for help

I was a binge eating narcissistic loser

I was so full of myself couldn't even move (uh)

I was a butterfly, trapped in its own cocoon

Stuck inside the walls of depression no room to bloom

I felt like i was hit by a fucking monsoon

for 6 months, But the storm eventually passed through

Used be so blue, until the wind finally blew

This fucking cloud out the way so i could see through

I was translucent, a feeling I never got used to

I'm lucid finally aware of my own truth too

I'm a new dude, music has finally felt smooth

I got a new plan and I'm hoping it falls through.