Ten Toes Down Challenge

If I saw you right here today, only on thing I would say

Where you been?

See what you did to me?

You made me stronger

Trynna thank you for everything

Although I wish you were here longer

But three years is all I got

Then you left in the middle of the night

You're killin me with a knife through the heart

Always said that you'd treat us right from the start

But you left in the middle of the night

Seven years flew right on by

Then you died, and I tried, but I died inside

What would you do in my place?

Would you give up or would you give chase?

Seems like no-one's there for me

Seems like no-one cars for me

Seems like the best things in life are always right in front of us

When the only confidence we ever have is incompetence

Sometimes I take the time to sit around and think about

My mother, bet she's proud

I wish that she could see me now

But nah, instead she's lookin' down

I grew up bein' surrounded by all of the drugs

I never made the best decisions well except for one

i was never the best in school

Matter of fact I was one of the worst

And that's probably because of the haters

Who always tryin' to rate us

Don't ever let'em contain us

be true to the ones who made us

Wasn't easy bein' me in my life

Came from nothin' now I'm livin' on the high rise

Workin' hard for everythin' that I got

Which isn't much but hen I don't need a lot, no

When I die, pray to God they forgivin me

When I die, pray to lower negativity

I never, ever confuse it

Just fuse it with the pain

Put it all together, throw it in the rain

So much that's on my brain

So much I'm trynna say

Everythin I'm trynna do

Trynna get my message through

Talkin to myself in words that happen to rhymme

And Imma send my mom a message just to tell her she's been on my mind

Lately I've been thinkin life is short, like an airport

Million things you gotta do before you take off

Used to wanna put the gun to my temple

Squeeze the trigger

Put a couple rounds through my head

Now I'm ayin thank God that I never did

Cant believe that I ever wanted to commit

Someday when I have my children

Follow my kids to the edge of the atlas

I'm so sick and tired of depression, aggression, confession, and even opression

Got a call from someone syain that she OD'ed

What you expect? when she poppin pills and doin crack

How could anybody leave their kids behind like that

Cant believe that she ever ran away like that