Suizival thoughts

Back when I was 5 I loved my fucking life

Because I had nothing to deal with, No bullshit, no strife.

And now I'm getting older, be 20 in a few days

I feel so fucking trapped and my mind is in a haze

I remember back when daddy died I broke down at school

Slit my wrists in the bathroom, and watched the blood pool.

The look on my teachers face really said it all

So much feeling had left my body, I was limp in the stall.

No body fucking noticed that I wasn't in that fucking class

Even if they did, they would have just pointed at me and laughed.

So fuck all of you bitches, I would have been better dead.

Maybe tonight I'll think about you when a bullets in my head.

I remember momma shootin up every fuckin day

I'd talk about my sperm donor, but I wouldn't know what to say

That mother fucker found out I had acid in my head

So he tried to get me to shoot up with him, I'd rather shoot him dead.

Got kicked out of grandma's on fuckin christmas eve.

Fuck that bitch I'll curse her name with every breath I breathe.

And fuck my baby mama too, that bitch can eat a dick

I thought she really loved me, but just wanted to hit a lick

Well fuck that bitch she ain't gettin a fuckin dime from me

I'm gone blow up and she gone wish she ain't never fuckin leave.

So tomorrow I won't wake up, cause tonight I just wont sleep

Cause I'd rather just go pop my dome than be around you sheep.

I thought I loved a bitch last year, but she was just a joke

I hope a broke boy gets you pregnant and then leaves you for the dope

My ride or dies all died so who the fuck is with me now?

No body, so fuck the world, on her period with no towel

I put my heart and soul into everything I spit

so now I have no heart, I have no soul, just an empty fucking pit.

I wish that this was made up like that Joyner Lucas song

And I wish that I could fix my past but I'll never right my wrongs.

Shout out to everyone who said they'd stick around

But honestly now I'd trade you all for a half fucking pound

No one feel pity for me when I finally off myself.

Cause you never felt pity for me when you were putting me through hell.