finished

cant remember the last time; i was tucked in to bed

remembering as never; as suicidal thoughts run through my head

when i walk around it looks like i came back from the dead

depression has me in a slump just kill me again ill come back like a zed

 

biological mother, abandoned me at 2

said these kids are going to a foster home if they dont leave with you

these words she said to my aunt; it was straight hell she went through

had kids bouncing everywhere looked like kangaroos in a new york zoo

 

but she fought through it; made me into the man i am today

she picked me up when i was on the ground soaking in pouring rain

she would keep me motivated in this world i'd want to stay

but shes gone now since march 1st 2013 the exact day

 

hell yeah i miss her; too much to explain

it seems like since she left all i ever did was complain

but thats all i could do since stress and depression had overcame

i wish she was still her but ik shes in a better place

 

looking down on me; and what i have become

oops just kidding, what am i now? im not athletic just because i can run

 

i guess i should just listen.. to what my "friends" have to say.

ik im ugly pathetic weak gullible and these words made my emotions decay

because i cant brighten up a room im just a cloudy day

i know im annoying but i think its okay

 

because on the other side; i dont give a damn what you think

to the real people im not the weak and broken link

im the one; who makes their life complete;

see my life is a constant compettition and i came to compete

mind clear as a see through sheet

cuz i found my strength in what i do you can hate because i forsee

because all you have to say will come around a nd bite you

the saying doesnt lie karma sure is a B

 

know im not taking anything, from you anymore;

you can hate on me but i'll cut you off by slamming a door

you should think more about yourself then calling the girls who mean the most to me ugly fat whores

so im ending this verse, with a saironara;

make sure you're perfect before you judge me, Gods the only one with that honor

 

 

so heres my reach out; to the people who feel emotions have taken control

to the ones who haters have left their hearts knotted up in a roll

to the ones who feel like they dont wanna live

to the ones whos lives are filled with sin

to the ones who feel the blade is their only escape

to the ones who have a hole in you that is gaped

to the real ones who have emotions and love truly

to the ones who dont use girls for pics or some booty

to the loyal ones who love with all their hearts

and to the ones who have fought through hell although they thought the end would also be the start

 

but im also greatful for the positivity in my life

elizabeth i love you thanks for telling me itl be alright

momma im still thinking of you everyday

know youlll always have a big and special part of meh

know i'll remember

every word you had to say

and know youll always be my inspiration; to the ending day