B.4.M - The First Love(Spend som...

I can't believe I fell for the first girl who came my way

I could sit here n dwell all day but I myself went astray

I was badly in dismay, never woulda guessed id pay

Once madly in love handed a shove like child's play

Sadly at the time I was all about me, too much shit compiled

All about myself, selfish off on a spree like I was wild

Sorry, girl and you know who you are despite us being so far

We gave it a whirl, maybe you were being polite but I left a scar

You can't change fate, they say everything happens for a reason

There's no such thing as soul mate, maybe just rainy season

I'm just brainy, this shits just grainy like memories

I called you baby like you were my gravy like my melodies

I'd be lying if I said I wished the worst upon you

I'm just trying to exist because I'm cursed just like you

It's amazing isn't it? The way time flies by

Your heart once racing, it's almost a crime to say good bye

 

I'm just trying to exist because I'm cursed just like you

It's amazing isn't it? The way time flies by

Your heart once racing, it's almost a crime to say good bye

To think, I actually thought what we had was real

Ina blink you were just a fantasy like a fifth wheel

Reality kicked in n to this day I say you was the craziest

Fuck I had ever had, the morality kicked in, you was spontaneous

Mischievous, yet in your presence I actually felt something

It was contagious because goddamn my adrenaline was pumping

N to this day I ain't felt that same rush I once had

Cupids arrow dealt me a crush I never wanted so bad

When I first met you, I couldn't even look you in the eyes

When you looked in mine you couldn't see your own demise

When something seems to good to be true it usually is

Love is nothing but hopes n dreams, a cruel money biz

The funny thing is, I would go back n relive it all

This dummy learned to forgive himself and I no longer fall

With age we seem to have a different outlook on things

We were never on the same page, who knows what life brings

What would my life be like if I never ever met you

I wouldn't understand love whatsoever so, I wouldn't have a fucking clue

I still don't have a fucking clue as to who or what I really am

 

No matter what I seem to do, it's always the same outcome

Hearts shatter, I have no dream of fame, my hearts numb

No dream of love and no woman will ever steal me away

That shove, never again I can't conceal the fact I'm astray

It's better this way in fact, for me love has become a cliche

Nothing but foul play and eventually you'll meet your doomsday

But who am I to say, ive had nothing but bad luck

So black n gray nothing but fuck n chucks

Call me tin man, because my heart has no vacancy

I'm just a negative nancy who writes raps gettin all sappy

I don't even know what it really means to be happy

By all means teach me the meaning without being yappy

God broke my mold, and I have no such thing as soul mate

Surely im odd but im cold and this hate is just my fate

This is who I am and I will never show any mercy

Fucking ho's I won't have it with the controversy

I met one ho, fucked her, cried about her than forget her

Or did I? I wrote a song about her despite being cold like Brrr

I've learned my words can hurt, so call this me being nice

Under normal circumstances im as rebellious as miami vice

Now I'm just an asshole who writes shit down with a pencil

No fights left in me, you don't wanna commit with the devil