What's wrong with me?
• Written by Goatboy
it's been about a year
and I have this growing fear
that I may not be here as long as I had hoped
It seems that no matter how much I smoke
I just can't choke down this feeling that I get
Like a burning pit inside my gut
like fuck
why am I the one that people go to for advice
I cant even figure out my own life
I want to help I want to make a change
but I feel like I'm going insane
I'm seeing all my friends and the ones that I love
shooting up and leaving us going up above
I have this growing fear that I may not be here
cause as we speak and as I rap
I'm feeling something snap
it might be my mind or I'm hearing my rope
and as I'm writing this I'm leaving all my hope
happiness is what you make it
but what the hell happens when you cant fucking take it
It's make or break and I cant seem to fake
anymore I can feel something slipping from me
Like Im at deaths door
I keep asking why and I don't even know
why I try to help those that have given up
like please give me anything just let me know youre ok
I don't know how I ended up this way
wrong turn? Wrong answers? wrong fucking everything
and I could take days to write out all that I feel
but I'll never hear the angels sing
is this shit even real?
I'm trying to catch my breath as best as I can
but I don't think I'll make it through
like damn man
I'm trying to find some clarity in the haze
but I can't seem to find the solid grown
so I pour the gasoline and go up in a blaze of emotion
wonder if anyone will get the notion
time is fleeting and every moment counts
especially when you can feel your moments running out
real talk real shit I can feel it
it's like a cloud that swirling around
and no matter what you do
you always lose what you found
I don't mean to sound like a bitch
but I'm weak and I'm finally admitting it
no armor around my heart
I'm letting out everything I ever kept
from the end to the start
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Goatboy
Member since December 29 2016