Calm Before the Storm

[Verse]

They say monsters don't exist

But there's one inside me

And its eating me alive

 

Listen to me, listen to me

Don't pretend to know me

Because you will never understand

 

This curse that's gripped me

It's all I have left

It's the only thing I can count on

 

The world is moving on

leaving me behind

And I'm left hopeless in my puddle of blood

Waiting for that moment to die

 

[Chorus]

I catch myself thinking about suicide with a smile

All I wanted was that bullet

Straight through my fucking brain

 

I'm left with my mind destroying my soul

Every moment I let it live its ripping me apart

Until that moment when I let go

 

[Verse]

I try to wash out this feeling,

but for the pain left inside it's suicide I embrace

Its killing me from the inside out

 

Because nobody wants to die,

But rid themselves of the pain that comes with living

Nobody wants to be forgotten

But sometimes they think it's better that way

 

Always in turmoil, never in peace

Always fighting the demons in my head

They never rest, making me spit blood from my veins

 

Night after night they haunt me

I'm afraid to go to sleep

Because the terrors that they give me won't fade from my mind

 

They think I'm going crazy, that I need help

But I just need to die

 

[Chorus]