Life's a lie

Life is just a lie,

People live just to end up saying bye

I like to hide

Im to shy

I keep it inside

I like to keep myself

I keep all my deep thoughts on a shelf

Where no-one can reach

Where my thoughts can’t be breached

 

Depression is like a virus

Anxiety is like phthirus

Like why do I hate life

Why is my heart being stabbed with a knife

Other kids have it worse

Why is life just a curse

I feel selfish for feeling this way

Kids who have it worse still smile and say hey

While I don’t smile

And my happiness is kept in a tiny file

While all I feel is a huge depression pile

 

Like yeah I may have a bum ass dad

I know this doesn’t make me glad

My mom may be a druggie

She may always be buggie

yeah they use to fight

Practically every night

Punching and yelling

Felt like hell and

After years of living that way

My mom left him and we moved away

I do see him almost every weekend

Nothing could help with the way I grew up not even a friend

 

I may be poor

I barely have money for the store

At 14 I had to get a job

Yeah I did always throb

But I worked hard

All people have been scarred

Yeah in their own way,

I may have it worse then some but I also have it better then others

Some don’t even have mothers

Or fathers

Some don’t have mothers and fathers

And that really bothers

Cause I have both

So I made an oath

To myself

That I gotta try to be happy

and I can’t be sappy

 

i haven’t dropped out of school

But I almost never go to school I know I’m such a fool

I don’t got the motivation

i’m drowning

Im always frowning

Depression has me now

All I wonder is how

How’d I come here

This was always my fear

Like all I can do now is peer

While I’m drowning, going deeper and deeper

And the blackness gets steeper

 

Life is just a lie,

People live just to end up saying bye

I like to hide

Im to shy

I keep it inside

I like to keep myself

I keep all my deep thoughts on a shelf

Where no-one can reach

Where my thoughts can’t be breached

 

I believe I’m selfish

Im feeling like imma have to pay

For feeling this way

Like I said kids have it worse

some kids and depression have immersed

Better call a nurse

Oh wait its to late

Better call a hearse

 

Yeah they’re dead

Depression got in their head

Depression got in my head too

I was about to kill myself but my mother knew

She calmed me down

She now also had a frown

Now were both feeling down

I cried and cried

I just lied

Said I was fine

But she knew that line

I have ur back I need u to have mine

But in order to do that u need to be here

but mother I have a fear

And that fear is quite near

Oh dear

What is this fear

depression I said loud and clear

My dear

Theres nothing to fear

I’m always here

Im also always near

 

Life is just a lie,

People live just to end up saying bye

You like to hide

your to shy

You keep it inside

you like to keep yourself

You keep all your deep thoughts on a shelf

Where no-one can reach

Where your thoughts can’t be breached

 

It does hurt it always will

But u got someone so just chill

U may think no one really has a care

Or your just a burden to bare

But someone is always there