Eighteen
• Written by Codean
Eighteen years millions of tears
Beat and got defeat by many fears
His reality is his fuckn nitemares
Looking for his reality through broken mirrors
Got no control in his life but he the fuhrer.
This his reality in a dream
Scotty where are you this boy needs to be beamed
Before this species gets him creamed
Grim reaper, eternal sleeper
His soul darkening wheres the gate keeper
Shadows beating him down
Falling off his throne lost his crown
Defenses failing all you see in the throne room
His dark side got the better he about to meet his doom
He screams hes creamed hes only eighteen
He lost to his darkest fiend
This his mental state struggling to get to the gate
Sick of the pain and neglection
Goes to a princess for protection
But when he looks in the reflection
He sees his darker perplextion
But its too late to escape the lie
He fading he about to die
Eighteen years millions of tears
Beat and got defeat by many fears
His reality is his fuckn nitemares
Looking for his reality through broken mirrors
Got no control in his life but he the fuhrer.
His parents don't see cuz he mask it
Cant explain it uz he cant grasp it
Hes walking but hes already in the casket
Hes fighting but hes sinking
nobody really knows what hes thinking
Eyes glazed as hes blinking
Life and death linking
Hes a teen but hes lost to his fiend
Cant stand the asencion
To the dimension where hes not mentioned
He stands on a cliff looking out
It echos in the cavern when he shouts
Realizes he lost even in a dream he controls
Hes grinding gears but the dark drive pulls
Trying to fix shit but can't close the hole
No matter what shit he throws out the bowl
He's losing grip and probably will never be whole
He cant reach a goal chokin on failure like clouds of coal
Rebellin tryna get something the fiend stole
Jumps for safety but misses reaching for the pole
Eighteen years milions of tears
Beat and got defeat by many fears
His reality is his fuckn niremares
Looking for his reality through broken mirrors
Got no control in his life but he the fuhrer.
Talking no in his dreams hes silently walking
As something else thats darker is stalking
Hes friendly trust me the guy aint antisocial
He just chooses not to be vocal
His choices are chosen by the voices
Alone hes talkin to the unheard noises
Talking alone yet with someone
Reaches for the gun cuz he done
But doesnt pull the release
Cuz hes still struggling with the beast
Hes humble but cant admit this defeat
Cant allow himself to be beat
So instead he writes it on the sheet
But heres the truth thats deadly
So Ima tread here steadily
The boy is me, Codean
Im dreading defeat lookin for victory
Im struggling cuz I wanna change History
My greatness is my down fall
So I spit it out for you all
Eighteen years milions of tears
Beat and got defeat by many fears
His reality is his fuckn niremares
Looking for his reality through broken mirrors
Got no control in his life but he the fuhrer.
