Don't know me

This is for all the ones who did suicide or tried to commit it. This is for you

 

Just a young girl with depression

Feelings full of oppression

Been kicked and hit by society

Probably why I suffer from anxiety

 

yeah

 

You think you know me

But everyday I'm feelin so lonely

All these thoughts in my head are killing me

so damn slowly

 

I am a person of survival

but growing up that was never really my title

a young girl who became suicidal

and just wanting to end it all

Thinking no one is gonna care

My life just became a downfall and

I became a soldier with a battle scar

 

You think you know me

But you don't know my story

When I told you I wasn't fine, you let it slip by

So, I kept it bottled inside

 

You would think I'd have it great with all these fake smiles but

Don't ever judge a face or

think you can walk in the shoes they've laced

You'll never know what it's like till you've had a taste

 

You think you know me

but you don't know I'm fighting constantly, mentally

but also physically and emotionally

And one day, I decided to just end it all

Knowing this world is not my place

feeling like a damn disgrace

 

I was so damn close

but then I read a special poem

and thought, damn how can I be so selfish?

I always thought that I was worth nothing

But the one who gave me life thought I was something

and the one who wrote me that poem, I knew she

cared about me deeply

 

You think you know me

But I'm just a mystery

You may rap cos you think it's cool

But I rap cos I want to escape my reality, it's so cruel

I never had a father but I pray to one who's higher

So go ahead and hate me, but I'll just be a fighter

I'll fight these depressing battles in my mind

and know that I have people helping me get through just fine

I was full of closed doors but for others

I'll just open them doors, because

honestly, depression just sucks