thinking dark

On the outside standing strong like shit don't faze me/

Maybe, because it's eatin' me up on the inside daily/

Crazy I just keep findin myself in the same damn boat/

Lost a float, message in a bottle, murder he wrote/

Soaked, I keep feelin' like I'm losin' all of my friends/

This shit keeps going on and no one comprehends/

Or understands, people gettin' worked up and upset/

Still not up yet, apparently I still haven't had enough yet/

Shit goes great for a while then it all falls to pieces/

I have a thesis, trends up and down more than Nasdaq/

How whack, feelin' like we're havin more fights than fun/

I just wanna be done, shit really might not have begun/

My boys got my back, nope only one of em thats a fact/

My girls got my back, nope none of em now, thats whack/

I can't relax, lately I'm on edge, just waitin to burst/

When worst comes to worst, apparently it's you first/

I feel like shit, I can't sleep, I'm hungry but I can't eat/

I thought we could, apparently we just can't compete/

Dot Dot delete, retreat, I'll be damned if I do repeat/

I forget now how it was we all even came to meet/

We've had good times, and we've had a few fights/

But never would I trade it back for all of the nights/

That I spent with you, you, her, him and the crew/

Parkin' lot pimpin', partyin', kickin it, or whatever we do/

We did, what do they say if it's too good to be true/

It probably is, but fuck we just tryna have fun like kids/

Well, we're growin' up, next year we'll probably all be gone/

Thinkin back reminiscing on how this shit all went wrong/

Sing a song, dance, drink, smoke some tree, whatever/

Rock bottom, shit can only get better, I'll miss forever/

Thinkin' I'm just sayin' all this shit just to be sayin' it?/

Nah, theres a message here man, and I'm conveyin' it/

So I'm telling you this all right now for your own benefit/

Read this slow, at least take away a good 95 percent of it/

There's a lotta shit goin' on right now, no ones gonna know/

Woah, I tried, so now I'm a sit back and watch the show/

Take it like a man, take one for the team like my homie/

Apparently you didn't know me, as well as I thought/

If you can't have it, it's always somethin' you want/

True talk, so if I upset you then yeah I do apologize/

But realize, those real eyes, see through those real lies./