Ten toes down

See, when you have this feeling.. its like, no other feeling. The feeling of

lost, doubt, exhaustion.. Depression. It's the voices in your head, they..

they won't go away.. Well, just listen.

 

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Yo, it's like you got all these voices up inside your head, they be saying

they want you alive, but then hoping you're dead, so you be up at night,

with a mental fight, inside your bed, so you be cutting with the knife,

waiting for your arm to be dripping red, yeah.. and that's real,

that's how depression feels.. I know its getting hard to heal, hard to feel,

now you're skipping 1, 2, 3, all your meals, now it's getting hard to cope,

kinda getting hard to deal.

 

You don't want to go outside, you feel like no one likes you,

you feel you got to hide, you feel like everyone always wants

to fight you, you be hoping everyday that you will see the light soon,

you be cutting every single day too, just trying to get your day through,

no one has to put on your shoes, no one see's life from your point of view,

now you're questioning life, like what the hell are you're supposed to do,

you looking in the mirror and wondering who, you want to be a kid again,

you wish you never had grew.

 

Yeah, but that's just how it feels like, you gets some up and downs,

that's what we call life, you contemplating suicide, maybe once or even

twice, cuz you been standing in the dark when all you really needed was

some light, yeah.. I know how it goes, you can get some highs

but mostly lows, they say they feel, but they don't even know, you

be hating yourself but you put on a show, they say you aren't sad,

but do they feel what you feel though, your heart is hurting and you're

feeling alone, your life feels frozen and you're feeling so cold,

you can't fight this battle on your own, they say they can relate but

they really don't, they say they will they will be there, but they really won't,

you're trying to fight but its hard to cope, you start to lose faith, now

you're starting to lose hope, damn..

 

The voices in your head, are your only friends, they say you aren't

worth it, but come back around and make amends, they be wishing

you were dead, now you want to make it all end, this ain't a game,

you ain't playing pretend, you wishing that your life can just be reset,

cuz if this was a test, then you ain't getting it right, you be in the dark

but you really need some light, you can't do it on your own, you really

need a guide, you try and tell people how you feel but they let is slide,

Damn.

 

But you can't fix, what you can't help, they all be living life, while you

go through your own hell, you need some guidance in your life

cuz you ain't doing too well, you had a couple of ups, but then you

just fell, you try and shout out, but no one listens when you yell,

everyone just judges you, not listening to the story you have to tell,

yeah, they don't think about what you're going through, your life is a

mess and you don't know what to do, everyone is planning their future,

but you ain't even got a view, so you wondering what it would be like,

living in some one else's shoes, they judge you on the outside,

when they don't even know the truth, you don't wanna get close to

people cuz there is nothing else to lose, people hate you, and only

"Care" when they see you dead up on the news, yeah, hanging from

that noose, if it was life or death, you wouldn't hesitate to choose,

you're just a blank canvas in a colourful room, yeah you just a

flower that is awaiting to bloom.

 

 

Yeah you got ten toes, but you are barely standing, its like you

are on a island alone and stranded, yeah you have been abandoned,

yeah you're a bandit, to yourself, you ain't feeling happy, so you

put happy on the shelf, you ain't even a human anymore, you are

just a bunch of cells, living through this hell, slowly damaging your

health, depression is your life, there ain't nothing else, Now there

is nothing but a silent room and a shot gun shell.

 

But damn...