meanwhile

meanwhile

i mean while

i like to smile

while i spit out the vile bile

so stay for awhile

cause i cam from a misfile

a missed tile

a mile to the guile

as I work on my style

an animal that riled your wild

an assigned child

aside a despised aspired

ephebic comedic but strategic turned seasick

and my personality became quadriplegic

cause i hate when you laugh

it makes me glad im not ash

leave half the cash and i'll ketchum

leave a path for the mass to go fetch em

get em out the pen with no directions

upon further inspection

they are infected

 

meanwhile

I devise a mad plan

scan the project for some spam thats probably banned

rent a caravan and head to japan

runnin from the man

a dude I thought I already outran

but he followed me there

and as I just sat and stared

I realized something and got kinda scared

the man was not one to spare

he paired fear with a snare

and beer numbed the pain like I just dont care

then the fear turned to wonder that I havent felt in a year

the shear weight of waht i realized

formed my face into a sneer

I knew what must do

and what it meant to my dear

I just couldnt shake the dole

like a lump of coal in my throat

feeling kinda weird

so I stepped out to smoke

it had just started to snow

felt like dissappearing

my mind was so clear

no one could interfere

couldnt feel any worse

so I wrote my verse just like neil

 

so you try and suck out the marrow

but somethings in the way

you cant get no air flow

things are going slow

so just set up a scarecrow

a memento

for your friends though

to who you used to be

people you would see

but now you are free

free to be me

agree to believe

and be the bees knees

(cool enough sound bite)

you are cool enough for me

it only mattered what you believed in

I swear i wish it were different

this world is not how it should have been

my life could have been

how i see it with 20/20 vision

hindsight but they never did listen

I always felt I was just invisible to them

too invisible to win

too dismissible to be heard

and it hurt

which is why I always preferred the absurd

just confirming I was disturbed

but I was always alert

maybe too much so

overthinking like tokyo

like why was my portfolio

just filled with regret

Its just hard to move on ya know

life sucked

I thought I could change it

but it all stays the same

I'll never get fame or a dame

and I'll always be kinda lame

but just like my idols say

I'll put in the work

persevere through the worst

and search for the smirk

for when I make real

I'm pleased with my dreams

but thats all they are

supreme streams of consciousness

that will never be reached

never be breached

but I stay positive

just like lots a kids

dreaming the same dreams

scheming the same schemes

unfit for the machine

never quit he screamed

we are not sheep

so why do we believe

eclipse the naive

so tough it'll make ya dry heave

and they'll all probably leave

it depends on what you need

can you let go?

can you go without feed?

can you breath deep with speed?

compete until you bleed?

then proceed indeed

I will not impede

I believe