I'm a throne

I'm sorrow. I'm crying. I'm down. I'm dying. my bad. I'm lying,forgot fasten

or tying my belt. am I falling or flying?

I'm done. Am I started to expire?

I assume I'm rotten, whom should retire

always get declined or fired I guess it's hardwired

I couldn't get what I desired Fuck!

I lost my feelings, half the pain vanished. but still feel tired,

regardless. at lest I managed, to get some bad vibes to banished

I adore no one even if you were the sire of Spanish

I can't endure reminiscing at the Night, and think of all the things I'm missing

making my eyes glisten, giving me strong frisson, tryina envision

if everyone trying to dishing you not to mention no one would listen

to your shit. or just starts cussing dissing and pissing, you off

but eventually learned the lesson, and cease counting your flows

hence stop taking the slaps and start stepping the first steps in

your mission, and show those.

no more sob Take decisive decision like a boss

ain't your job or your ambition to satisfy whom bitching while hissing

And When I be a dad I would tell My son all the things I done

and what I learned from

hoping he would never encounter anything hard or be a bum

like I did I was Naive to understand

the repercussion I Know I was bad I admit that and always saying fuck

and that's what I got, never rose the peace flag I'm arrogant as fuck

forgive me god for being such snob didn't get enough love in the past

I'm glad I realized that before everything turn into black

or my bones start to crack,I either alone or feeling alone I'm a throne

and before I'm gone I'mma spark the war and cause the fear and gore

one last thing what did you take me for?

whore? poor? or bitch with gall, to diss you all, don't worry I do have more!

nether one of you faced nor tested my feelings or could ever endure

why would someone ever refuse to be cured?

The more I get sick the more I feel self-assured!

you have nothing to brake I broke myself before!

I remember what people forgot.calling me weak. mocking what I seek!

and when I speak they just giving me a nod like "Never Mind"

to the point when I sleep I forget to dream! lord why everyone so mean?

just throwing stones in a leak, Am I the quintessential devil-deed ever seen?

it seemed no one would ever stomach me Fine, but when I die

I know no one would say good bey but at least Learn one thing

as I pass away asking why?

no guide no shine

-like blind

trying to walk in a straight Line what would you guess he can find?

heaven or gold mine?