everything

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my own mom

said that she hated me

look away from me

its all grey

every single day i cant be this way

why dont i just run away

because someday

ill be lead astray

call me cray cray

on the day hey

sorry bae bae

that it had to end this way

but i cant be dealing with all these false claims

yall play way too many games

ill be put in flames

he proclaims

its in his veins

im like a hurricane

i destroy everything

that looks to me the same

theres so much shame

am i to blame

im sorry

so sorry

you deserve better

and all i want to do is pull a trigger

instead of climbing that ladder

i feel like im gonna shatter

yeah id rather

be a disaster

no not the master

im not a rapper

im just cancer

everyday im like please sir

just kill me

im not a pastor

im more or less the mad hatter

time for the next chapter

wont be normal till i master the art of my scattered and tattered life

on this path where there's way too many fights

all these vibes and sights

on the very same night

despite me trying so hard to stay hidden inside instead of taking flight

but all of that might lead to suicide

i feel like i already died

all the times that she lied

talking bout some sayain pride

i need someone to guide me

and stand beside me

but still i aint find nobody

in this unfilled messed up underworld

everythings just gonna get burned in the end

but we all pretend

and set a trend

that you dont need a friend

all you need to do is comprehend

which is to mentally understand

hand in hand

get that name brand

i just hope they all understand

its quite bland

and when it happens i'll most likely be damned