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Im not tryna be a pessimist i know i probably sound like one but listen where im coming from and look at where were coming from x3

Look at where we coming from

We got both our parents? You cant say that didnt fuck us up

Dont take it wrong im not giving you an order

But you doing this for money why the fuck youd want a toddler

Im not meant to be no father you aint too much of a mother

How many times you eat a day you think that you can raise a daughter

Yes pictures of the ultrasound i saw them

Insecure thoughts in my mind i fuckin got them

Worried and scared to death im practically post mortem

Cant understand shit your saying quit speaking foreign

Dont bring my family into this

An idiot okay you can call me a fuckin piece of shit

Your father picked you up and decided he dont want them

Im not doing the same thing im tryna do whats best for them

You wanna raise them in this neighbourhood

Where a C+ translates to all your grades are good

You wanna threaten me with scars on your arms

You wanna cut me up bitch i said i wish a fucking razor would

You got two girls in your womb

We dont even got a house let alone a nursery room

Im not telling you to deconstruct the thoughts in your mind

But decide on doing whats best for the ones whos living inside

Ive got no intention of leaving

Nevermind a predetermined disposition on being

A role model to one whos gotta be a leader to others

I couldnt lead if i wanted let alone lead for the mother

Im not tryna be a pessimist i know i probably sound like one but listen where im coming from and look at where were coming from x2

 

You cant tell me this is purely my fault

You cant tell me you dont want this at all

You cant tell me you dont love me no more

You cant tell me things were better before

You cant tell me this x4

 

I shoulda known better than this

Dont fuckin call again prick you aint fuckin shit

I dont need you ill do this by myself

I dont got no fuckin daddy i turned out pretty well

(Pause)

Next man he in jail

Next man he in hell

Next man do me well

Much better than you

He a graduate too

He go to graduate school

Then stops coming around

Im used to this life

My mother was the same she walked the street with a knife

My dad i think he banged and then he died in a fight

Next man serving life

You ever stop and think about our daughters theyre 6 now

Asking bout their daddy should i tell them the shit route

Should i let em listen to first verse of this song

Or rewind this tape and burn it that shit hurts for too long

I think of you sometimes

Wonder where youre at if your career going well

Wonder whered we be if we had done something else

If we were sombody else

I pray for you

You dont remember me

I woulda came with you

But you didnt stay with me

Im not trying to be a pessimist i know i probably sound like one but listen where im coming from and look at where were coming from x2

 

You cant tell me this is purely my fault

You cant tell me you dont want this at all

You cant tell me you dont love me no more

You cant tell me things were better before

You cant tell me this ×4

 

I couldnt hate you if i wanted to

Wouldnt know who to hate

I couldnt blame you if i wanted to

I mean look at your age

I heard that you write songs

You ever write about us

Heard you used to write mom poems

You ever write about me

You ever think about me

I ever pop in your head

You ever think about me

You still wish i was dead

Free falling made me feel im alive

Fear of calling mom and hearing her cry

Fear of bumping into you at store

Not even knowing what your lookin here for

I feel like you didnt give me a chance

I feel like you might be watching me dance

Feel like you couldve been at my show

School play or at a talent or as i dance on a pole

I think i hate you think i love you think id cry if i met you

Think id love to think im scared to think that i would upset you

Think im calling think you hang up think id just hear a dial tone

Guess you must mean something to her really hope that you die alone

Do you cry a lot

As much as me

Do you wanna die or not

Youre just like me

Im not tryna be a pessimist i know i probably sound like one but listen where im coming from and look at where were coming from x2