Irrelevant
• Written by KodaDS
KodaDS's Notes
So a year and a half ago I ended up in a relationship with a friend of mine from when I was ten years old. Unfortunately, he aged a lot more nastily than me, and after six months of being a third wheel in an abusive relationship I snapped and almost caved to depression.
But I'm stronger than that and better now, and fuck him.
So here's the work in progress.
[Intro]
I always said I loved you but I never really meant it
I guess I never knew how I should say that we should end it
And now it’s been six months and I’m still paying your fuckin’ rent
And sitting at my laptop while I hear your fuck your boyfriend
[Verse]
Said you my best friend
But you got me under your desk like you’re Clinton
Bitch listen, I’m submissive but that don’t mean that I’m all that ignorant
I’m awkward, sure, sheltered, yes
Childish, check! Loyal, def
I’m confused and figuring out myself
Said you’d help me but you stripped off myself
Esteem, Worth, Value
Call it whatever, if you will
Made it impossible to leave
Cause you told me I couldn’t be
Anything without you with me
Through your words, actions, Ideas
That you put right inside my head
Till you had me wishing I was dead
Everyone who’s anyone will tell you that’s easy
To amputate infection and to cauterize the bleeding
But deep in me you caused a kinda masochistic needing
Because I felt with you, I had nothing else, you’re misleading
I’m sick of this shit, I’m ending this shit,
Not ending my life, I'm gonna think twice
Abuse is unclean, Psychological means
But like Sia, I’m a Diamond
Now you’re gone and I’m shinin’
[Hook]
I know
That I never really loved you
And I know
That I just needed something to do
And I know
Depression is a bitch, but
I'm better alone
I'm better alone
Took your number of my phone
I'm better alone
You're irrelevant
[Verse 2]
Spent time in a mental cell
Wondering should I give you hell
Until I realized your reputation for your lies
Taking mental weakness
And feigning sugary sweetness
Misdirecting affection, emotional vivisection
Like,
At eighteen, I was weak, and meek
Overweight physique, Thought everyone was out of my league
And those scars never really numb
So I thought you were the one, cause affection was so hard to come by
Bye, Bye, Our dialogue was never nsync
A ship that was bound to sink , but
I learned to fly away and leave you in the wreckage
Because your lack of attention was causing my heart to hemorrhage
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KodaDS
Member since June 10 2015