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Good grief been content in my thoughts for a couple weeks/

I'm not used to my demons being this silent

This noise usually gives me guidance silence makes me more frightened

My pen been running out of ink my vision gets more hazy every time i blink

They claim i aint a star but my reach is cosmic

Just an obnoxious toxic teen that starts to run that mosh pit

I went from nothing coming out the faucet

To being symbolic to some other different people

Weird that my own pain starts to feed my pockets

Shit i was a zero now i'm starting to turn into every boys hero

I'm not the sheet that you’ll use to cry on your pillow/

I'm probably more of the reason for all your self inflictions

Probably the reason you’ll overdose on medicine that's not your subscription/

I can't be the leader if i'm full of contradictions

I cant pray for you if i can't even pray for myself

I can't look out for you if i'm not even looking out for myself

There's a breach in logic i'm fucking agnostic so stop looking at me as your god/

 

Ironic i don't even do drugs but for some reason i'm your narcotic/

You be psychotic every time i leave your house/

Why the fuck can't i be at peace knowing your freaking out

Whenever i'm not around didn't we just talk about the breakdowns/

The suicidal episodes i think you’d understand i guess i suppose/

In the back of my head i know i should fucking leave you/

But why is there something stopping me from getting rid of you/

I did say i’d never leave

but i can't be thinking about the cuts you covering up with your sleeve

Shit i sometimes be thinking i'm naive thinking you be the one to conceive/

My seed cause if it was as a fucked up as you i’d want an abortion

Even if i did keep the child you’d probably use it as an object for extortion

Love isn't supposed to feel this way i shouldn't feel better thinking i should kill you anyway

You don't even love yourself but i'll definitely love killing you anyway