Undecided

Im so depressed,it's making me desperate

Im taking hits. This shit. It's real lit.

I'm burning cones and tossin stones.

I hurt my bones but im not alone.

I'm just gonna close my eyes and pretend I'm home

but. oh wait... that thing called home is what I've never known.

 

I spent 3 fucking hours on the phone

It's with a chick. And if i had given a fuck its with my dick.

That hoe's got lost and i was the cause of it.

She just crashed she's releasing a fluid.

I didn't know. I'd never seen blood befo'

I stooped so low and i just couldn't forget.

Half of her body was just laying upon my chest

I swept away all her tears that she couldn't mend

I got depressed as it seemed like it was a new trend

i fucked my life and now i want it all to end.

The blood and scars is all that i represent

These people tell me that i am still pretty blessed

But what ive seen is only the half of it.

 

I got home and i started to slit and hurt my wrist.

The blade was swift and i just became a river of instant regret.

That was my first attempt.n

I think of times that i couldve spent just loving myself some more

but now im just hooked and poor

 

That day i couldnt go on no more

so i fell and hit the floor as im reaching for the door

I ain't gotta worry no more

So tell me why do i feel at war.

Is it cos i ain't tall or go out to the mall and hang out with my friends?

i paid for the dividends. im feeling omnipotence.

Im losing all importance.

i feel the independence.

Im gonna steal some pendants.

 

These hoes are fucking peasants.

These children are their pressents.

im dipping like doritos.

Im stealing from casinos.

Knocking out dumb cunts cheekbones.

My punches are like torpedoes.

I think these drugs are placebos.

Im screwing all these kids egos.

My own parents hate me and that blows.

So i just bite my lip and move

 

I got this radar on. You are the red blip

if you fuck with my bitches

You gonna getstitches.

I'm high as fuck and I didn't call for all this

See, women are the queens, and bitches just bitches

Babe you know it gets no better than this