Untitled Song

Listen up, this pain is in my gut

Im trying to escape but I find myself stuck

Im all up in my head and im feelin like im dead

Cause I cant escape the chains that lock me to my bed

and I.. try hard just to make it through the day

Everything will be ok but all I do is pray, for a

New beginning, one that I am winning

My life is like a loading screen its always fucking spinning

 

All these thoughts, these empty fucking spots

Where my friends used to be, guess they didnt need ME

So I, look back, try to keep track of the things I might have done

We were always having fun..

 

I dont belong, wanna disappear

With a hand up my spine like a fucking puppeteer

My soul is deceased, replaced by a beast

Im, dead.. thats what I feel like at least....

 

The wetter the weather is when the darkness comes

Your tethered for better whether or not your done

Your demons be screamin like come on it fun

But you gotta pull out before they overcome, your fear..

 

Wasted effort, wasted tears

Ive been trying to fit in but I wasted years

Thats my biggest fear, fuck it crack a beer

Im alone in this room, the ceilings closing in

I try to break free but whos gunna win?

 

 

I need a shoulder, someone to be my boulder

Lots of lonely nights as I grow older

Always taking steps, always fucking trying

People see me smiling but deep inside im dying

From the darkness that empowers me and showers me

till my soul end up free.. fly away, take the pain away

 

You can lose everything you love, everything youve worked for,

In the blink of an eye

My family, my friends, is it selfish to not say goodbye?

Of course.. I would never. Im trying to get better

But first I need to figure out why my emotions are bone dry..

Till then, ill just lay here and close my eyes

 

 

(talking)

Now listen up, I dont expect you to get this, but I wrote it anyways.

I wanna be alright but I fucking hate this..

I feel like im alone, guess my life is in the hands of the path I chose.

Im slowly pushing everyone I love away.. I cant help it. I HATE IT

I know I should feel but I cant.. im paralyzed

Guess I just gotta wake up and realize that...

Its hard to see the sun when your living in the rain..