Outcasted from Society

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Chatting up these girls, man it's nostalgia, angry at my momma

Ain't got any friends, sat alone in the corner of the table, ain't nobody speak my name up

Learned to be the kid who was good at math, nerdy at that

Never spoke up though, always sat and wrote when I came home

Murder goes on in my dome, I think there's something wrong with my chromosomes

Maybe my cells are messed the fuck up

Maybe it's postmortem, my high ain't up anymore, just a sad dump

Filled with everybody elses garbage, not my own, never am alone

Got these thoughts, sit down and applaud at myself, ain't nobody there to do it

Hold hands with myself, don't doubt me though

I can disappoint everybody in this room within seconds, sit down take a lesson

My life, is everything but a blessing

It's sad as shit, until I spit, then it gets kind of lit, cause I see the light

Then I realize, it was fake, imaginary, an illusion, my fake but true sin

I never see things the way I should, always hurt myself cutting out the parts I didn't like

Never felt right, unless I was on the mic, now I gotta rise, freestyle tonight

Leveled up, on my grind, ya'll ain't gonna waste my time now

I'm up, never been in a slump, maybe I switch too fast, you couldn't understand it

So you assume I suck, never let me rise again, I feel like Jesus, amen

I am prayin' to him, hoping he'll help me through these times, keep me alive

Take my life, control it if you need to

I got a couple of issues, I trip on my own shoes, cause I hesitate

I always get that underrate, people never wanna hear me play

Got an instrumental, decided to pounce on the opportunity when it came around

Came to this site, hopes high, feeling like all those times I listened to music on the headphones

Worth the pain, now I got hip hop flowing in my veins, it plays on in my brain, loop

But I ain't no fruit, matter of fact, I'm aloof, need to proceed, indeed, if I wanna succeed

My life isn't guaranteed, none of this shit came free, now my trauma comes back

Childhood at that, never felt alright, people look at me like I'm a creep, or they overlook

Never thought I could leave them shook, I murdered them with my own hooks I wrote

Read this book, you never liked me, now I'm away, never gonna stay, in a place filled with hate

Swirls in my mind, staying on that grind, never check the time, gonna take a ride

On these roads, fill my head with hope, don't need dope, if I did that, already woulda had a rope.