dead inside

yeah im dead inside cant think right

i think i see the light fuck its actually bright

i wonder what my mum would be thinking

or is she grieving?

 

MUM

you aint dying on me

who's gonna look after me when your gone

answer your godam phone i got your message before

i thought i was gonna see ya later on

but i guess not, but that doesnt mean im giving up just now

i know i can still reach out but not when you dont answer the fucken phone

 

MESSAGE

hey mum im sorry

i cant handle the pain

im sorry that it had to end this way

just know everything will be okay

i left my last pay

i pray that everything stays the same

please dont grieve its not your fault

i just didnt know what reason i had to fucken live for

just know i will be re born again

ill remember you face and name

and come see you some day

 

MUM

you have every right to live

please pick up your phone

im tracking down every single place you liked

do you remember the codes that you give them

the names were to hard to remember

i will never forget ya