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• Written by dedjesus
I think about death as I watch my wrist bleed
I don't even eat if I don't have this weed
my demons don't sleep cause they constantly feed
I don't know what they need, I just want to be freed
from all of these voices, I'm feeling so weak
feeling so voiceless, feeling like the black sheep
can't make the right choices, always choose to tweak
life is so pointless, all I feel is fatigue
I can't stop to weep, I just wanna sleep
living inside of a world full of greed
everybody's cheap, just like some speed
i'm just trynna keep, myself guaranteed
that it'll get better just like this cold weather
i'm feelin the pressure to get all this cheddar
but as soon as i get it, it goes in the shredder
i know i'm not clever, i don't need your lecture
slicing up my wrist, till i'm satisfied
I just want to die
makes my mother cry
when i tell lies
about if i tried
taking my own life
hate to be alive
I apologize
just going through hard times
just trying to survive
another fucking night
with all these thoughts of mine
really starting to think that I'm
dead inside
beginning to realize
that after all these highs
I don't really feel so nice
So I keep doing lines
back to paradise
to ignore that I've
always worn a disguise
a mask, a way to hide
how i'm feeling inside
I guess that's my worst vice
except for the way I slice
my wrist with a knife
can't you see in my eyes
that i really hate this life
that i really want to die
but fuck i hate suicide
If i told you I was happy than I lied
I couldn't ever be, even if i tried
see the thought of you just makes me wanna cry
feeling blue, so i stay inside and hide
I lay awake, suicide is on my mind
I don't like the type of things I think at night
never thought I would, now maybe I might
honestly, i think its better if i died.
depression isn't fun, always feel numb
need to get high, just to get by
I don't want my life
deception's like a gun, she was my victim
I didn't mean to lie, or to make her cry
i just wanna die
I just wanna run, as far as I can
just from everyone, i know i'm still young
I'm still saying bye
To all of my good friends
i should say old friends
cause i'm on my own, always so alone
all the way till death
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dedjesus
Member since October 17 2018