Lost

I've been kinda lost lately

My life is falling apart completely

Don't even know who I use to be

Look in the mirror and I don't see me

 

Lemme get myself back on style

Been on a depressive track for a while

No one hit up my text not even a dial

All of my emotions are in one big pile

I think I need to find my state of mind

Need to know what I want to be and how to find

I think my life is hard to define

Sometimes it feels like it ain't even mine

I wake up every single day to hear the same old story

Oh Man it's just a joke please don't fucking worry

You're a faggot

You're gay

They keep telling me the same shit every fucking single day

Inside I'm ripping up falling apart

While everyone is laughing so hard

Hope you enjoy last laughs

While I last

I go to the store just to buy one

He said are you old enough son

I told him I don't a give a fuck

Grab the gun

Load it up

Put it up to my brain

Pull the trigger

Now I'm done

I hope y'all had your motherfucking fun

The next day the world sees my tragedy

And how all of you little bastards fucked up society

It's nice to see

That at least for once the blame wasn't put on me

You see suicide wasn't because I did it

It's because they pushed me to my limits

I was in it originally to win it

You see when I was born baby

I grew up to a boy

Suppose to be a man

But that story was destroyed

See lately I've been paranoid

But you guys got me annoyed to the point where I ended as a boy

Suppose to be a man

Suppose to stand my ground

But look where I am now

6 feet underground

Screaming for help and crying out loud

Wishing things were different than they turned out

Because some little bastards bullied me put me down

Gave devil my the crown

While he sat in his thrown

Now I burn in hell

Wish things were different

Wish I could switch up

But it's already to late you made me fucked up

 

I've been kinda lost lately

My life is falling apart completely

Don't even know who I use to even be

Look in the mirror and I don't see me