Proud of Me - Finished

Uhh, This the music I listen to on a lucid night

Call it consistence, you wonder if it's just you or not

I keep fallin' to inconsistencies, but I'm sailin' off like a paradox

My life I'm wishin' was fair enough

Mother's dishin' dinner It's bare enough

All these empty plates of a sinner, just starin up

I wonder if god even cares to call me

If you can here this, be careful and just keep carin for me

No past to squarin' with, but presents been bitter sweet

Who knew that Christmas was misperceived

I just can't help it, I'm throwin' up with emotion

this genius has been awoken, stomach churnin', It's fear and focus

I can't fear my work, when the work is the way I'm workin'

My music knows how to make itself, It's subverting

but music ain't makin' shelves, they revertin' and I

Keep on, fallin' victim to deep depression

Every break from my teachin' and every one of the lessons

 

I've been doing this on my own, this flight has time for departure

How can I make it alone if making me sleep is harder, for real

And I just can't keep going on with it

My dream Is what I'm chasing until I feel that I'm one with it

Funny, how music can make you drift away

That's why I write cause If I die, well then I lived today

I didn't pray 'cause I know that nobody listens

If It's just a godly given, then god I hope I'm forgiven

If all hopes in a vision that why can't I just live it

A dream state within the man that my brain sits in

If an upper hand isn't fair should I'll burn bridges?

The faces match the description until they get up and leave you

Lovers are merely cheaters so why can't I ask for redo's?

I keep blaming myself and I know that I'm far from reason

I Keep on working harder, trying to break my demons

If it's basically treason, I'll give up the mic and leave them