Heart break

I catch myself

Looking through all our old texts

Lookin through this small screen

Feeling remorse and regret

The feelings of hatred

Begin to set in my heart

I never dreamed of a world where you and I were apart

Yet that world has become what I have to live through everyday

Why’d you have to fucking leave me

You couldn’t just stay?

Well you did it girl

I hope that you’re proud

I’m on my knees screaming

But my words are drowned out

By the daggers left behind

Filling my heart full of doubt

Cause you said that you loved me

That I was your forever

So tell me girl

When did forever start meaning never together

I gave you all of what I am

But it was never enough

I remember the day

When you threw out my stuff

I acted childish, yeah

But that’s cause I was fuckin hurtin

Makin me feel as if my existence is a burden

You hurt me, you the reason I feel I wanna die

I guess there’s nothing else to say to you ‘cept goodbye

Yeah, why the fuck did you have to go and leave

I sit here writin raps tears dried on my sleeve

I thought you really loved me, man you made me believe

That you’d always be there for me

But even that was a tease

Now I’m sittin here alone

Just me and my thoughts

This uphill battle

That I fought and fought

These suicidal dreams keep sneaking up on me

They say I gotta price to pay, and my life is that fee

I never knew someone I loved so much could hurt me this bad

I shoulda seen this coming I ain’t allowed to be mad

I should just man up

Take this shit as it comes my way

But I know that it gets harder just day after day

So I got this gun

I point it up to my head

I start to pull the trigger,

But first let Me just say

You hear about it on the news, do you even feel bad

It’s your fault I’m dead

Man I fucking hope it makes you sad

I hope you have to look at you friends

And see the judgement in their eyes

Here the hate in their voices

Over your drowned out cries

I hope your life becomes a living hell

A purgatory of its own

So you can begin to understand how I felt

Truly alone.