Never Feel My Pain

These words so hard to express, so I picked a pen

To insert my feelings to this paper before I'm gone and dead

When I was alive you didn't feel me nor my pain

Don't act like you give a fuck, I know you never cared

Remember I told you that I love you to the death

And you just said fuck off and put middle fingers to my face

It was really hard for me, but I somehow got over

You know life just goes on, it ain't never over

And you learn to live with scars, and you know how it feels

But what am I supposed to do when they really never heal

I can't move, I can't fuckin breath when they hurt

I wish i was dead so I could get out of this world

And It turns out that I am a coward

I can't take my own life so I hope God will

All my life I felt isolated, I had enough

Time to put an end to my life and my fuckin pain ugh

 

Now don't act like you loved me, 'cause you didn't

I know you made fun of me, 'cause I was different?

Never say I was a weird kid, you were ignorant

And call my death unexpectable, but it wasn't

Go there and tell them that I was your friend

Play the innocent little girl, you know how to pretend

But now I am gone and I am very far away

I hope you can't breath every time you remember me, hey

 

People passing by ask me how I am , I say I am fine

But I feel like a suicidal bomb with this state of mind

I don't feel pain, I don't feel love, it's just the way it is

If you are here to talk shit just leave me please

Because you are the reason that I am writing this letter

You didn't even do anything to make me feel better

And if I am a ghost tommorow it is all on you

Bitch you don't know the shit that I've gone through

Bitch you don't know how it feels to desire the death every minute

Bitch you don't know how it feels to be depressed you feel it?

And all you do is talking shit and telling me it will be okay

But you wasn't here when I was crying, fuck this shit anyway

I don't wanna scream and cry when I am treated like shit

I really wish you would feel the way I feel at least a bit

Maybe it was you, maybe it was him, who to really blame

Maybe it was the whole society that couldn't feel my pain

 

Now don't act like you loved me, 'cause you didn't

I know you made fun of me, 'cause I was different?

Never say I was a weird kid, you were ignorant

And call my death unexpectable, but it wasn't

Go there and tell them that I was your friend

Play the innocent little girl, you know how to pretend

But now I am gone and I am very far away

I hope you can't breath every time you remember me, hey

 

This letter isn't from my perspective, I am just a narrator

I told you his story to make myself feel better

'Cause I feel I'm guilty as much as you

As much as the society we left that man alone yo

I wish I could wash my sins and they all just fade away

Let's hope everything will be good tomorrow day

His life was precious and also I should change mine

To be better as a person, but I know it takes time