My Head

you know whats its like to have a farther disown you

physically, emotionally, and mentally abuse you

at the same times hes chocking you telling you he loves you

all you want to do is make him proud (yeah)

join the marines in 2018

just to be sent back home (wow)

Now i'm here writing this poem to just get the pain out

When i was 8 years old your older brother raped me now

when i was 11 went to juvie to get a little bit of treatment

had plenty of times to think about when i was mistreated

come back home when i was 16 and felt totaly different

brother didnt love me, before i left you said you hated me

swearing youll take my life

tried doing that myself a couple times

but im still alive and your asking why

where your boys went

where mom went

why why

 

ive been dating this girl for a year and a half now

praying to god i dont end up like you

drunk and confused mentally unstable

im asking a big question in december

ill be on one knee if you dont hear any of this

i just want you to know all i tryed to do is make you proud

(wow)

kill yourself

(yeah)

kill yourself