Collect the debt

I PONDER AND I WONDER THROUGH MY OWN DIFFERENT THOUGHTS,

STUCK LETTING THE DRUGS SIMPLY DO WHAT I COULD NOT.

PAINT A PICTURE OF A THOUSAND WORD SCRIPTURE,

MEMORIES OF MY LITTLE SISTER BUT SHE'S GONE AND I MISS HER.

SO FULL OF LIFE AS BEAUTIFUL AS THE STARY NIGHT SKY,

WAKE UP EVERY DAY SHOOTING FOR A FUTURE SO BRIGHT.

AND SOMETIMES, EVEN THOUGH IT SHOWS MY SOFTER SIDE,

LEAVING HER BEHIND I ADMIT LEFT ME WISHING I WOULD DIE.

NUMB OF MOST EMOTION AND IVE FORGOTTEN HOW TO CRY,

INSTEAD I CRAMB IT ALL AND KEEP IT DEEP DOWN INSIDE.

I LOOK AT OTHERS AND WONDER WHAT THEY WANT,

CAUSE THEY TRIP ON ME CAUSE IM SO SMOKED IM PROLLY GONE.

BUT ITS BEST IF THESE PEOPLE DONT REALLY KNOW ME,

WHEN FIGHTS TURN TO WARS ILL MAKE SURE IM STILL STANDING.

LIFE'S A BITCH WE AINT SHIT BUT FOR AS LONG AS I LIVE,

I WONT TRUST EVEN A SWEATER TO HOLD A STITCH.

MY FAMILY'S BOLD MAN WE'VE WORKED FOR OUR PAST,

PREPARING FOR THE FUTURE YA WE'RE BUILT TO LAST.

NOW I NEVER DID CHORES BUT OF COURSE MY PARENTS DIVORCED,

BUT THAT WASNT MY BUSINESS SO IT CERTAINLY AINT YOURS.

I AINT ABOUT TO TELL YOU MY WHOLE LIFE STORY,

EVEN IF I DID YOU'D PROLLY GET BORED AND IGNORE ME.

THATS NOT A LOSS OR A GAIN CAUSE I TRULY DONT GIVE A SHIT,

KEEP IN MIND IF YOU CROSS ME IMA SWING WITHOUT A MISS.

 

hook: YOU SEE,

IM STUBBORN AND IM IGNORANT,

GOT TOO MUCH PRIDE TO PRETEND THAT IM HEAVENSCENT.

AND BY THIS I MEANT, I SHOULD HAVE SAID,

THAT IM COLLECTING YOUR DEBT, DEMONS UP IN HEAVEN,

IM PROOF OF THEM MAN. (x2)

 

IN A ROOM FULL OF PEOPLE SO MUCH IS BEING SAID,

LONELY HEARTED IN THE CORNER HEARING VOICES IN MY HEAD.

NO ONE SEEMS TO NOTICE I DOUBT THEY EVEN CARE,

BEGIN FEELING UNKNOWN REMORSE THIS JUST ISNT FAIR.

I DONT EVEN KNOW MY OWN HEAD BUT IM SURE IT DONT LIE TO ME,

I THINK TO MYSELF BUT SOMEONE ELSE ANSWERS INSTEAD.

I DONT WANNA BELIEVE BUT IM STARTING TO THINK,

THAT MAYBE THE VOICES UP THERE ARE CONTROLLING ME.

EVERYONE LAUGHING AND THE OTHERS SAY, THEY'RE LAUGHING AT YOU,

AS YOU LOOK AT THEIR FACES YOUR CONVINCED IT IS TRUE.

A HIDDEN PAST OF PAIN LIVING'S HAD A PRICE TO PAY,

THESE VOICES BECOME YOUR CONSCIOUS GETTING LOUDER EVERYDAY.

SO YOU GET UP BEGIN TO LEAVE EVERYONE SAYS TAKE CARE,

THINKING THATS IMPOSSIBLE BECAUSE THE VOICES ARE STILL THERE.

WHETHER IT WAS YOU TO CHOOSE OR MAYBE IT WAS DRUG INDUSED,

OVERCOMING THE DEMONS IS REALLY TOUGH TO DO.

TAKE CARE ONCE AGAIN BUT THE VOICES ARE CONTROLLING MY HEAD,

TO KILL THOSE THOUGHTS I HEAR ID HAVE TO BE DEAD.

WANTING TO COMMIT SUICIDE HOW COULD THEY NOT DIE,

WELL IF ITS NOT YOUR TIME YOULL STAY ALIVE BELIEVE ME IVE TRIED.

 

hook: YOU SEE,

IM STUBBORN AND IM IGNORANT,

GOT TOO MUCH PRIDE TO PRETEND THAT IM HEAVENSCENT.

AND BY THIS I MEANT, I SHOULD HAVE SAID,

THAT IM COLLECTING YOUR DEBT, DEMONS UP IN HEAVEN,

IM PROOF OF THEM MAN. (x2)