Underwater

I take a last breath at the edge of a cliff.

Falling with no fear.

Silence what i can first hear.

I submerged in my thoughts. Thinking about feelings.

Feelings what can not be spoken with words.

Just float and dive deeper in the ocean until reach the bottom.

Here i feel the pressure. And i realise it can be a permanent solution.

Down there noone can see my tears while I drowning. Im choking.

I cant decide what is the cause. Maybe the water or something else?

When my last hearth beats are closer and closer I realise.

It can be an easy way out. Or just start the way up?

How i can make this deal?

Now i can refuse to feel, what is my desire.

But I even refuse to heal, to get higher.

Stay or stay alive. So hard to decide.

Here just me and the void with so much unspoken words.

Few kicks and my choice is the life.

No matter how hard but I keep fight.