Lost Forever

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Wake up in the morning after two days of sleep

In need of fresh bed sheets, my limits are reached

Turn on rhapsody starin at my dad's vintage cleats

I'm not a team player though, just a kid wit dre beats

a nay-sayer livin off dreams and hope he clings to dope and coke,

so I take a toke of my medicine wondering if this life's worth investin in. spurs second guessin

behind curtains watchin the world hurtin from a distance

He sings just one sentence, gleams in only his own presence,

only content when no one else is present, staring at resin the last in his possession

treasurin every moment like it's last, an outcast, left flat on his ass

through glasses seeing everything as it passes, the work of the jerk in a working world

pushed twirled and rushed no time to hurl

no rhyme can save this little boy or girl

Born non-rural in a city a comfortless accident, need no pitty

I make money to get by but the governments taxin it,

my mark starts via a vita to leave a fat dent,

set in store through each sore formed by this semi-auto repeater

Born a leader, avid mad-lib reader, you fill in the blank as I take what I rake in to the bank

My heart sank when my bro was shot in the streets,

hopin it was just a prank as I'm lost in these beats, please god help me in this time of defeat

I need a reason to go on so I put on a new song feelin withdrawn

dealin with no mom, all the pain I've undergone has shaped what you hear here in your ear

shed no tears, these are my fears I bear, wear, I swear I don't know where I'm at

It ain't fair I'm given the seat in which I sat, livin in a shiverin cold soul painted flat matte black

broken in pieces nothin left intact, is what I say fake fiction fact or crap

We've all got questions to ask, lessons to learn outside a class

to keep or not to repeat with this stashed bag of hash, do I move past or try an outlast

Just caught in the aftermath, the trash of many past middle-class drones

who moans and groans in a foreign place we call home, see I speak what you think just with a different tone

For now unknown, this verse hurts worse than any stone thrown

Just discovered rap like god threw me a bone, freshly uncovered

Stubborn hiding under the covers, this fighting and writing is what makes us brothers

like true lovers caught lost in the summer, 3rd degree sunburned

told to leave no stone unturned, what happens if I never get big and discovered

Fooled forced to to be ruled by pigs stuck in rainy weather

Whether or not my endeavors are lost forever

 

Am I lost forever...

 

I think I'm lost forever...