I Learned

I learned a lot over the years

I shed too many tears

Experience too much severe pain

That will make you go insane

Fell down to my knees for prayer

Stare into the sky and said God you the only one I fear

That's no lie while I wipe these tears from my eyes

Sometimes I just want to disappear

To clear my mind of all the anguish and hate

That seems to be my fate

I know I was meant to be great

God led me to a path to sanctify his name

Sometimes I feel like how can I proclaim when I feel so drain

I'm trying to maintain but the more I gain

The more people want to see me stumble and fall

But I try to stay humble through it all

The more people want to see my brain layed out on the concrete

But I can't give them the satisfaction cause this is my passion

They not ready for this reaction

I been rapping since I was 10

I kept it a secret cause I didn't know if I could win

I was already getting judge just for the color of my skin

Do you know what it feel like to not belong

So I had no choice but to sing my song

People made me think I was wrong for being me

So I push all my feelings deep down inside until I had no sound

Drowning in my emotions I was growing into an explosion

I became so broken but I knew that I was chosen

Why else so much negativity directed at my life

People smiling in my face but really wanting to stab me in the back

That's just facts everyones fake at the end of the day

So I stay to myself, prayed up and then get paid.