words

where to begin

how to jump in

with no emotion within

why be living when no rewards given

i just wanted to fit in

but for twenty years i've been sinking

like a two year old swimming

i have no lust for men, money or women

drugs grow old and on i go

they're guessing its depression

think i just came out less than

never listened to a lesson

brain broken from all the brown smoken

but a token i'm not,

i'd rather rot than go pop

fuck, i'd rather mop a parking lot with my cock before i ever give up

but whatever

feels like my whole life been under the weather

 

I confess to murder yearly

loved ones pass me by like they can't hear me

my closest friend i think he fears me

oh hear hear me oh please be vary

how can i let someone else be near me

when i haven't felt peace in years

that's not true but this peace it tears

me apart from my peers and my cares

are hidden away from me to share

To Anyone else and my self

It sits bottled up up on the shelf

Maybe if i get fucked up enough it'll help

Reached high and then i fell