Over And Over

I've thought about ending it a million times

Watch the procession as the bells ring like chimes

Reduced to a creature lurking in confines

All the people noticed but denied any signs

When what I said to do was read between the lines

Now I watch 6 foot under just swinging through the vines

 

My family thought me feckless

Just Young, dumb and reckless

Until they found me in the room all choked up and breathless

The cut straight through almost gone neck less

And the paper they saw was only but a checklist

 

They wondered what was accomplished

Who was the true accomplice

Was it true or just unconscious

Going through the worthless nonsense

With cries out of astonish

Waste a life they helped demolish