dark nessestity

at times it seems as a daydream

yes tons of kids leave me on seen

makes me feel empty wanna be unseen

yet people think I make it a routine

the part that makes my heart spark

makes me wanna press that restart

as my heart rate is off the chart

all this makes it hard makes me sound like a retard

leaves me all alone in the dark

as all the dogs bark it triggers inside me all the ecstacy

all the memories coming back to me

im just wandering what life means to me

all this darkness doesn't want to leave

ill always be forever lonely n never unleash

never perceive, never grieve

about whats underneath

theres a breeze then the trees ease

its negative 3 degrees somehow the leaves haven't yet freezed

today I cowardly received news

I was so confused so I went for a cruise

bought some new shoes

while out searching for clues

as I did seeking out for the truth

I was quickly on the move

trying to prove trying to improve

every time I lose

it lights up a fuse

deep inside my roots

its hard to sit back and ingest the truth while in my youth

I do got shit to lose

when theres a decision I do gotta choose

I try to make my choices smooth

sometimes I refuse to tell because I aint got an excuse

misuse n feeling loose just sitting there confused wishing i had a breakthrough

wish i had a crew so i would be understood

never liking to be misunderstood

ive always wished for a brotherhood