Tester

I needa put this out there...

 

Mind you, I ain't no pussy,

My mama always told me go be something worry...

 

Here I am today, feeling like I should prolly go away.

Maybe someday I'll grab the gun,

Tell the fam I'mma go have fun,

When I'm gone I'm just gonna go and make the most of it,

I'm gonna hold that grip tight like the gun won't fit

 

A couple hours later,

I'm sittin' on the elevator,

Holdin' that gun straight to my head like it's my only saviour.

 

Saviour from this pain

Saviour from the vain-ness that I only imagine

 

I don't know why I'm even trying,

Writin' this while I'm cryin',

 

this rap ain't that good,

but for now, I'm gonna go sit in the hood..

 

Think bout why I can't be me,

The only thing I could only ever hope to see...

 

I needa go, I feel it's bout time that I'm gonna blow

Ain't nothin in world that ever gonna hit me lower

than a fuckin mistake made by the fuckin owner...

 

the owner of my life, the one who holds back his strife..

I got that gun back to my head,

I'm only wishin I was dead,

Not being undead, living in this world where we're all fed...

 

A bunch of lies, no one ever told me if I'm truly Wise...

but with power comes struggle.... it'll only be about an hour til I'm numb

The unstoppable... the unthinkable...

 

Again, I know this rap ain't shit,

But at least I'm putting forth the effort to spit,

 

Bars, only thing I hear are the cars going round town

The town that's only ever held me back down to the ground.