When I Stay Up Late Smoking :: Xico

I'm trapped between a lack of sleep and a secret

I practice deep rap because with that I have treatment

This mattress feels flat without active achievement

That I attach to, like a nap on the weekend

Purse-snatching only to borrow a couple napkins

Old friends spoiled like milk after the weeks end

And

I wanna go back to you but we tried and it didn't work

You got that new guy who we both used to called a jerk

And we're young but do you really need that shirt

I know we young but I'm just upset and seeing what worse

The thought of losing you

Or

I guess dying first

You are a last wish and a curse

On my sole soul Adidas sneakers only

No Nike, never did it

Never felt right, I hope you understand solely

 

Because if you feel half as bad as me

You'd get lonely

But all you feel is a half inch dick

inside ye *You pronounced funny*

And all I can say is "I'm happy"

and all you hear is I'm happy

Wish I could tell you the truth like I used to

Wish we could be honest without being awkward

Without being high as fuck without being starboard

Star-bound is what I am

You don't realize it now but someday

I'll be the man

You wish you would've stayed with

But now you're just a fan

That knew me as a kid

But missed me as a man

 

You missed your chance

You missed your last chance