Don't Wait For Me

I been thinkin' bout what I could have done better,

Decisions I've made built me up to be who I am

Someday I'll wake up and have faced all my sins

My emotions reconciled with the intent within

It might take a bottle, it might take a sip

But I know that I need this to get a grip

I have slipped, I admit it, but give me some credit

Why were you so desperate to get out of the lifestyle we built?

It's like overnight you just flipped the script,

And inside my mind, I am poorly equipped

 

Don't wait for me,

You deserve the fucking world

I wake up each day and wish I could provide

But my hands are always tied,

And it's kinda absurd

You are perfect boo, in every way I know,

So despite all my mistakes, you probably should know

There ain't enough words to articulate

What I wish I could give to you

 

The most basic emotion, still foreign to me

Like a sailboat lost at sea, this motion is too much for me

Overwhelming, I capsize, drowning for sure

Your love was the only cure

Time for me to disappear, a new frontier awaits

Beyond the gates, and past this life

Where higher stakes await a modern Shakespeare

Forgetting all of the love we've made here

And commandeer my own life before I get to the afterlife

I should have made you my wife,

How could have I have been such a fool?

You gave me your life, 11 years, close to 12, and now you're the victim

Of my inability to see beyond myself

I remember when I saw you in high school,

I had to wipe away the drool, how could I have been such a tool?

You offered your beauty, your love, and your time

These things are not given, and can not be bought

I became so driven to make you mine

That I failed to see the unconditional love you sought

 

Don't wait for me,

You deserve the fucking world

I wake up each day and wish I could provide

But my hands are always tied,

And it's kinda absurd

You are perfect boo, in every way I know,

So despite all my mistakes, you probably should know

There ain't enough words to articulate

What I wish I could give to you

 

You told me you would leave me if I didn't change my ways,

And I was too blind to understand how valuable it is nowadays

To have someone who loves you and wants you to be happy,

And sometimes, you get lucky, and they wanna start a family

Sometimes, I feel it's just a game of shifting blame,

And staking a claim to try and tame the shame I feel inside

For letting you down all of those years and cowering before my fears

You asked for a rock and a promise of love,

I always looked at the clock like, "Oh, eventually.

You'll see! I love you, but that's a huge commitment!

Maybe in the future, when things are different."

Fast forward 5 years and the excuses never stopped,

I started to feel like I was just robbing you.

How could I continue? What an issue.

All of those times I should have copped up to what you expected of me

Maybe you'd still be here with me

 

Don't wait for me,

You deserve the fucking world

I wake up each day and wish I could provide

But my hands are always tied,

And it's kinda absurd

You are perfect boo, in every way I know,

So despite all my mistakes, you probably should know

There ain't enough words to articulate

What I wish I could give to you