A Life to Live

When you’re young life’s about fun

 

Running off and playing with toy guns

 

Enjoying life with everybody and everyone

 

But let’s not forget the pain it brung

 

Seeing your Mom fight your Dad is super sad

 

From a young age I could tell it was bad

 

A few years later my mom and sister were all I had

 

But if I’m honest when he left I was glad

 

I knew it would have drove her mad

 

Growing up without him made me bad

 

Fightings all I knew I never told them the pain I went through

 

Feeling like crap wondering why my dad didn’t ever come back

 

Was I not good enough for my old man?

 

Or was it all part of Gods plan

 

I’m starting to think love is sham

 

For him to love me I would do anything I can

 

Why he can’t love me I can’t understand

 

But my mom made a better man

 

I know she did better then he can

 

If I could I would give her all the worlds land

 

She’s not perfect no one really is

 

But it’s a struggle trying to raise two kids

 

We put her through so much shit

 

Even though without her I’d be dead in a ditch

 

My dad was gone but his parents were hear

 

Grandma and Grandpa taught me to have no fear

 

And that God will keep the path clear

 

She moved away but my aunt was near

 

She left for a good career

 

But I know her love will never disappear

 

My uncle was locked in cell faraway

 

But he still helps me be a man until this day

 

Little did I know there

 

A new member was gonna join the show

 

A baby with the brightest glow

 

More delicate then a snow flake

 

And I can’t wait until her birthday

 

She’s only three and a headache

 

But when I had to leave it made my heartbreak

 

My little sister had lots of tears

 

My older one looked away but I know she cared

 

I moved to get a better education

 

And I had to clear my reputation

 

But 2 years later it feels like a bad vacation

 

School just causes frustration

 

But in this world it’s all about dedication

 

Too this day I still have thoughts about my father

 

And wonder why being there was such a bother

 

16 years to this day

 

I think I was better off without him anyway

 

My family helped me get by day to day

 

Even when 3rd grade teacher passed away

 

I’d rather die without a father

 

Then be around a man who has no honour

 

I made friends who became brothers

 

And I could never replace their love with another

 

Through all the heartaches we suffer

 

I’ll love my friends and family like no others