Stream Of Thought

Ima be honest with you baby girl

Before I met you

I was fuckin hella chicks and this shit was simple

Never second thoughts bout the things they had to go through

The feelings that I tried to show you

That's the me that they were hopeful to get close to

So the games that you play

I can relate

My heart says yes

But my mind says wait

There's a war going on in my brain

To avoid stray bullets with love letters resembling God's image carved in em

I fall victim

To the fast life living and the whiskey sippin

In crowded rooms without no people in em

And if it aint your eyes

I'm staring in empty bottles like there's a message in it

Cast away my fears when I speak on beats

Don't expect anyone to listen so I reach my peace

Reach my peak in silence

Defeat seized in timing

Weeks feel like months when we're divided

I'd be honored

If I could have your undevided attention

I gotta mention

If you don't want to lend it

I won't be offended

Fuck fake affection

I don't want it if it aint genuine

 

Maybe I'm just insecure

But I've been hurt baby

I don't want to feel pain no more

A little over protective

Your sweet word's the cure

But I trust actions

I'm helpless and feeling unsure

I have trust issues and its never been clearer

"He who does not see yet believes is blessed"

Hate to be the bearer

Of bad news

But that's untrue

Now look, I aint disagreeing with scriptures written

In the Holy Book

I'm just saying it's dated

Most of it I still relate with

And it's crazy wait,

That's a debate I gotta save for another day

What I'm tryna say

I don't wanna feel inferior

If your dreams include chilling with niggas

Either or going out with people

Lying to themselves you can keep it

I know I'm probably hypocritical

Self righteous living in my own mind

But in time I'm trying to accept me

For now, my heart and mind's divide's

Wider than skies

I can't hide

I admire the stars in your eyes