you never loved me

i dont pretend to know everything youve been through

but please dont kill yourself

i know the pain seems endless

and yes i was careless, and reckless

but your so precious.

 

you said i cant care, this is nothing but a nightmare

cuz i still care... now dont you dare pull the trigger.

you see my texts not my face, im nothing but a disgrace.

 

please dont kill yourself, i put the knife back on the shelf.

last month i cut myself, yeah its true... it started the issue.

i tried to muster up the courage to put myself away that day.

 

you told me your gonna kill yourself and you were close to it.

what about god do you still feel close to him?

 

you preach god

but you act like cheech... your an overreach.

yes i left you, but you still have no clue why.

to that i reply, i cant have female friends... my happiness with you.

it was true but had to keep shut. still wonder why i cut?

ah fuck ill tell you the rest, cuz a message from you is like a slug to the chest.

fuck it i'll try my best.

 

no, female friends... no free weekends... he raped you, beat you.

im not supposed to do anything. well fuck you.

you dont own me, shit you dont even know me.

 

i told my whole family about you

my whole crew knew you.

i always talked about you.

now my life is a zoo...

my friend kira, she told me to cheer up... she asked me not to cut.

where were you?

 

you went through my messenger, even when i'd message her. i'd tell her that your my future.

we were goals, now you left holes... fuck finish your bowls.

you dont smoke anymore. its too late, there would be no heitate for me.

 

go pray to god, but dont get caught smoking your pot.