Jasmine

There was more than just alcohol going to my head

Made mistakes that fucked my love up now I feel fucking dead

Thought I was the shit now all I see is tears and red

Not worried bout bread now I’m thinking bout what she said

I took it for granted my viewpoint slanted while having her in my bed

Fuck the money, fuck the clout. Fuck my confidence I'm out

All I feel now is doubt. Too fucked up to cry now too braindead to shout

I miss the way you kiss me, on my dick and my lips

All the girls I’ve been with since are nothing but radar blips

Every time you cross my mind there’s no way to unwind

I just take an endless sip put a cig up to my lips

I’d trash all that I had for a chance to turn back time

But without you got nothing I fake happiness like mimes

Just know, even though you’ll never see this rhyme-

I’m alone I’m not fine I skip the dine and just chug wine

Play songs that remind me of you railing line after line

Sit in desperate solitude beyond cryin trying to forget,

But you’re the greatest thing my life has or will ever get

The only one I think I’ll ever love again, greatest girl I ever met

My life like an empty eternity except for a pathetic fuck

Waiting for things to change, wishing for a break in my luck

It’s grating at my soul happiness feels out of range

and every moment I live sucks without my angel

But there’s one thing that drives me forward, hover over like a flame

That you’ll one day come back to me and wash away the rain

I’ll always love you, being together filled me up and killed the pain

I know I ain’t deserve it a bit

without you I’m not worth shit

Even now I crave your love for my same selfish reasons

You bring flavor to my soul and keep my life alive and seasoned

My heart sings for your love and raps for your vibes

No one feels about you like I do not in a million lives

Is this the end?

Should I bother once again hitting send seeing hope around the bend?

I really wanna know.

Is my life on the mend?

If it ain’t our life then I won’t pretend... I’m done and I have no soul to try it again